interview...

the interview yesterday went swimmingly! i soooooo want this job!and guess what else: i came home to a message on my machine calling me backfor a second interview with the head cheese today...apparently, they're afraid of someone else scooping me up & away from them.heh. what they don't know won't hurt them...so, whatever you had crossed for me yesterday, please please please...CROSS IT AGAIN! whatever you kids did worked wonders![ooh, if you need reimbursement for the virgins & goat's blood, i'll pay ya back if i get the job!]the child support thingee went incredibly well yesterday as well!we were able to figure out something that will work for the both of us - phew!

heh. jobs!

i have an interview monday with the people i wrote about previously!suh-weet! and right after that i have child a support hearing downtownin order to ACTUALLY get some child support![keep your fingers crossed]woot!

ya-hoo!

i am happily re-connected to the internet... and applying for jobs again like mad.[i think it might have been good for me to take a break, in order to start with renewed vigor]i got a response about 5 seconds [ok, more like 5 minutes] after sending in my resumeto one of the places, from a REAL person, not an auto-responder... I promptly emailed herback saying that no, i wouldn't be bored & that yes, i AM interested in the job and YES they can afford me. sweet. hopefully i hear back from them again tomorrow....tomorrow i get to get back to the sitting room site, as i ran into the owner @ larry's & got thepictures for the site from him RIGHT THEN! sweet! the pics are ever-so cool!ooh, and went to the chiropractor again today & got to discuss my x-rays... boy oh boy ismy spine ever fucked. but it will be nice to eventually be able to get up in the morning withoutback pain, debilitating headaches or difficulty walking... YAY for combatting old age!and i'm still enjoying wearing bras that are actually my size, rather than 2 cup sizes too small.[i had no idea that it wasn't a given that bras break down within a month -- not to mention constant adjusting]suh-weet! big boobie bras rock! realizing that my boobies are actually quite large, rocks LOBSTER!

oh happy happy day!

still haven't gotten my router...apparently they forgot to order it... it should be here tomorrow.yay for internet-reconnectedness!in other news... i found out something COOL @ victoria's secret!got measured, as i haven't done that since i first started wearing bras& found out - wait take a deep breath - are you ready?i'm a double-D! woo-hoo! [no wonder i was trashing bras within a month]sheesh, i was wearing two sizes too small! wel, as you may have gathered...i was pretty thrilled with the news [no longer will i have boobie envy]ok, onward... had a buddy visit me from canada this weekend... there was much drunkendebauchery to be had... as well as a chance to see sol's lovely place[and discover i'm even shorter than HIM] why oh why did we have to take offour big boots? yes, i'm shorter than i imagined - leg extensions here i come!saw tony... and as always, he was ever so lovely. got to see sol's buddy again, tim [i had forgotten his name - oops]. i was surrounded by pretty pretty pretty boys, i'm not sure the weekend could get much better than that.but wait, there's more!saturday i met up with mat, erica, ede & loren for a lovely night @ the vogue, had a blast, looked hot & was ready to kill some obnoxious white t-shirt people in jeans & t-shirts trying to 'dirty dance'... take that shit somewhere else my friend... eeewwas tired, so we all decided to head to mine, rather than off to the merc.ended up gabbing most of the night... & woke up to ede @ the door with crepes & yummy chopped fruits for everyone [awww, what a guy]. yes, ede you rock the casbah! you can come spend a weekend of debauchery @ mine anytime.oh, there's more, that happened today while i visited erica in anacortes, but i'm too lazy to type anymore. ugh. better spellcheck this bad-boy & head off to spend some time with mat, he's lovely & bare in his karate pants over on the couch... looking rather inviting i might add...nighty-night kittens.

friday night...

went to see la boheme last night... it was absolutely lovely![especially since i wasn't wearing any underwear - heh]perhaps i'll see the lot of you tonight? not sure what we'reup to this evening... perhaps we'll see you out? - we'll see.off to buy new bras [yay for no more poking metal bits]& to go check out beautiful furniture - mmmmm modern goodness!

FYI:

my modem has gone tits up, & i won't be online again until about april.don't worry if i don't reply to you right away...

in happier news...

my lovely matthew has scored! he made it into the seattle opera.he will be performing in the first performance in the new opera house.http://www.seattleopera.org/operas/parsifal/index.asp

ok update...

first off, let me just say that i am ashamed to be called american today.i hate this stupid fucking war. it's not about peace for iraq, it's about oil for america.hate hate hate [i guess i'm keeping with the american spirit by doing that, aren't i?]in other news...my car was totaled by the insurance company, luckily the adjuster was VERY nice to me.i got enough out of my car to buy a saab - with an interior like a bloodclot [how fitting].it's cool though, i'm big pimpin' [or something like that]still haven't found a job - i think i'll do the lowest of low... apply @ kinkos. eeew, life sucks on the employment plane.i'm reading two cool books @ the moment... one, that makes all of my morrissey fantasiescome true Morrissey & Marr: The Severed Alliance as well as Cryptonomicon - another deliciously geeky read.hmmm, not much else to report. i'll be out friday night... will anyone be going to the spring ball thingee on friday?

cool!

the claims adjuster came & looked at my poor mangled car...[gosh, he sure was a nice guy] - i'll find out how much i getin a few days... hopefully it's huge wodges of cash!!![not that it matters... i've decided to get my car fixed this time]but yay for fixing my car anyway!

jobs...

i already got some responses for some of the jobs i applied to yesterday...SWEET!

oh yeah...

two more things...some stupid kid merged into my car on saturday. at least he was insured.[i think my car has bad [car]ma... ok lame.shutup] between breakins, attempted breakinsthat leave my car damaged, bad car washes [that rip off gas caps] & dummies that keep hitting my poor little piece of shit car... sheesh, what's the deal?my fish is pregnant - SWEET!so, anyone who wants to provide a good home to some baby african cichlids...[hint hint hint] - that is, if the babies survive to adulthood. mwahhhh!

it's about freaking time

ok, so i haven't updated in awhile... what's new.i've been sick and busy. Bad combo, but i can't complain.i finished the site for the detective people, will be starting on the sitting roomsite soon [maybe tomorrow] - and damn, i NEED to update christina's site.for goodness-sake, it's been FOREVER.still job-hunting... still on the short list for a great job that's all designy & stuff. cool. i also applied @ another cool company... hopefully THAT works out, i'd love to work for them.applied @ microsoft for some designy positions as well, we'll see.i must have applied for a billion jobs today - woo-hoo, job-hunting.[fingers crossed for me... i need a freaking JOB! - i HATE the ui office]ok, a rant ::you remember that interveiw i went on where my work was "too good", and he was worried about the environment being "not PC enough for you" - he's joking, right?did i mention that this same huy had the GALL to ask me out on a date?stupid fuck! - for some reason, that made me extremely angry.[i guess it's mostly because of the "too good/tooPC" bullshit] ARGH!on a better note, a friend of mine is sending my resume to some PM'she knows in hopes of helping me find gainful employment - geez, thanks bill![and i hadn't seen him in AGES... gawsh, what a guy!]note to self... must make fabulous dinner for bill - he deserves it![i'll even clean the house for you bill - THAT'S how much you rock]ok, i'm blabbing. enough now... head feels as if it will explode [snot-bomb all over my computer... eeeeeew, mucus.]

dear GOD! i NEEEEEEED!

stole this from someone else's post... luminex clothing!WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT!if i could wear this... getting married would be worth it![oooh, the vanity that is me!]

heeheehee!

just read this "i anonymous" in the stranger...Hot Mail We broke up almost a year ago. According to your friends, you've moved on and you're happier than you've been in years. Gee whiz, that's nice to hear. I'M NOT. So, I hacked into your e-mail account. Have you noticed a big drop in your spam? Yeah, I delete those for you. No need to thank me. I know that you're real busy with your new life and everything, so I've started replying to your friends for you. Last week I even had e-mail sex with some girl you met in a bar. She seemed real nice, and wow, what a kinky little minx! She started to get a little upset toward the end though, when you started to get mean. My, the things you say in the heat of the moment! Oh well, I think we can do better than her anyway. Oh yeah, your mother sent a message a few days ago. Turns out that your aunt... or a cousin or someone, I'm not really sure... but at any rate, she died. Sorry. --Anonymouswahahahahaha!

birthday...

had a blast last night... mat had planned a surprise get-togetheryeaterday evening [i was wondering why the hell he wanted to go tothe barca lounge before the merc - it was MY birthday after all... i found out soon enough]the funniest thing is that when we showed up, we saw some peoplethat we knew there... i didn't catch on until after they said happy birthday.duh - stupid me. so THAT'S why he wanted to go to barca so badly.afterward, we headed to the merc & i saw LOADS of people i hadn't seenin ages tony, karin, darren, celluloid_jam, realityhammer, gkr & many others that molested myever-so-tight corset [yay for my inner drag queen - i even had HUGE mylar lashes {silver & black striped} on, with red paint eyeshadow - tres sparkly].my boy is a good good boy...ooh, and i got loads of cool pressies as wella super-cool clock, some fabulous books and thatlovely orange drink from japan [don't ask me to pronounce it]ooh, and new sci-fi looking beads for my belly-ring - COOL!yes, i am super-spoiled & i am loving every minute of it!ps - phil, were you in "true kilt form" last night, or were you wearing panties? heeheehee!it was great to see all of you, i have missed you all terribly in my hermitting.

super hero name...

stole this from hex_kitten...mwaaaaahahhaha!


Villains fear me. Heroes envy me. Erika is... The Intellectual Mercenary

opulence...

i'm not sure life can get much better than this...i'm sitting here pissing around on lj while mat isstanding next to me practicing his opera stuff - he's a tenor[he needs to have a new piece prepared for some show in the seattle opera]yeah, i have the best boy in the world!oooh, did i mention that he does theoretical physics for philips ultrasound during the day... SWOON!i love my boy!

interview...

ok, get this... i went for a pre-interview today& of course brought my portfolio... big mistake.get this shite::i was turned down the job [that i could do in my FREAKING SLEEP] because, and i quote:"Your design work is too good, I would be doing you a disservice if i requested you for this position - you would be miserable there and would be sending out resumes the second day of employment"oh, and one more thing... he was worried about their politically INcorrectness [there were some ads that sported girls in bathingsuits - eek!] & how it would effect me - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! - he's kidding right?but, on a better note...when i got back... i got a callback [actually about four] from another job i applied for... hopefully this works out better than the last one. hmph!oh, and i'm meeting the people for the sitting room contract tomorrow night... wooo - drinkies @ the sitting room AND a good little contract! word.

job seeking... argh!

just found another headhunter place that specializes indigital media solutions - WOOHOO!and the jobs they have posted are PERFECT!perfect perfect perfect - hope hope hope!i want to hear back from them... NOW! [don't they have a 24 hour service for nightowls?]went to the unemployment office today, dear GOD!when i had my "orientation"... for fuck's sake! the guy wasabout as articulate as a first-grader. HE'S supposed to behelping me to find a job????? not likely! wait, there's more...i have to go every day now for some stupid freaking "peptalk"i actually have to sign in to prove that i was there!!!!!the people there are in ridiculously different circimstancesthan i [skills-wise] and i feel remarkably out of place.here's a sample of the kind of jobs they're offering...oooh, the sheraton's hiring housekeepers [it includes free shift meals] - i'll get right on thatthey're also hiring line cooks - um, can't even cook in a circle... let alone a LINEam i just being too aloof? i just want my huge school debt to mean something,& not be another depressing factor in my life i have to deal with every month.ok, it's not really that bad [well, it is - actually] - i AM getting free $$ from the government... i just have to stick it out until i find a real job.

hmph...

i was determined to get an early night, but i ended up just laying there, AWAKE.grrrrr. it's my birthday soon & i'm feeling the old creeping into my bones... i need somethingto help me resurface my inner drag queen - i thinkit's about freaking time i went out [properly... corset & all] againfound something online... cool hair for the weekend & lovely new lashes![that doesn't mess with your weekday corporate style] - mat... hint hint hint!russet fantasy falls want want want!mac's frosty lashes mmmmmm lashes!

resolution status :: needs improvement

ok, reading past entries, i came upon my resolutions... let's see how i'm doing so far, shall we?- eat less junk food - check! so far, i've lost 8 pounds!- exercise more [or at all would be a start] - check! [endurance is coming back to me quickly]- see more of my friends, not be so neglectful of them - uh, gotta work on that one- throw away my hermit-ways - see above- get a great job & kick ass there so that they all love & adore me [so i don't LOSE the job i resolved to get] - still looking, although i've been doing a bit of freelance stuff- not let my uber-independance destroy my relationships - check! i'm actually taking the time to GET TO KNOW my boyfriend... hmmm- go boarding... LOTS - uh, see jobless [aka: broke] resolution- get back into kickboxing [no, not that girly aerobic crap] - again, see jobless resolution- be [only a little] less vain - i'm scaring myself... am i getting too old for *true* vanity [nothing a night out & a rib-crushing corset won't fix!]?- try new things [i've always wanted to take bellydancing classes] - again, see joblessnessok, so i still have LOADS to work on. don't rub it in.

lovely weekend...

Had a fabulous weekend with mat... strange, after being together for over three years, i am finally making the time to really get to know him. He's even lovlier than i realized... and his BRAIN ---- ooooooh, yummy brains!recap ::friday night...we went to the harvard exit & saw City of God ...a Brazillian film i thoroughly enjoyed..... i can't help but feel a bit guilty about enjoying this film so much. i know i *should* be disturbed by gun-toting children and slum wars [and i was, but not enough to dislike the film, by any stretch]. it certainly was thought provoking, and i certainly enjoy a little thought-provocation [uh, always]Afterward we went to the Blu Bistro for drinkies & got to sit in the buddah room - it was sooooo tiny & fortalicious [as in, like a fort - you know, for kids]. The general consensus between mat & i is that... forced to decide between known [to us] religions, we choose HINDUISM. yay reincarnation!saturday...went to chinese new year festival in the international district... saw northwest taiko - cool cool cool! i want to be that cool, but with better outfits... is that too vain? spent the rest of the afternoon in the uwajimaya book store... mmmmm japanese design! followed by udon. yummy yummy udon!i was determined to head out to the merc, but as fate would have it, i worked out like a maniac [think flashdance, but to better music - i had headphones... mr oizo's analog worms attack, to be exact]... needless to say, i was entirely too exhausted to get all cinched up for the evening. instead we decided to, uh, turn in early... hehe.sunday...woke up deliciously late & then went to the gym - more mr oizo fueled exercise. afterward i made an exciting dicovery... subway has veggie patties! could this weekend get any better????? i think not!

HA!

i truly believe this is the best 'i saw you' i have ever seen...DEAR VIOLENT LONERPlease stop harrassing the children of our neighborhood. We are trying to celebrate jesus pony day and you are totally wrecking it every time. 2959------------------------------------------------------------------------waaaahahahahaha!

job prospects...

i have two new possible web contracts...small ones, but they'll get me through the rough spots i think. - one is pretty much a sure thing, it's just a matter of when they can get their content together - the other is unique indeed... [i'll tell you more about it if i get the contract]we should be meeting next week...keep your fingers crossed. i know i am.

insomnia...

can't sleep, i'm off to read my new iain banks book that mat's mother so kindly sent me for christmas from england [awwww!] - you can't get 'em over here[except for 'the wasp factory' which i read YEARS ago].hooray mr. banks! - your culture novels rock!whoa! i just did a search on mr banks... apparently they have gotten the rights to publish more of his books here in the good-ole-warmongering-u-s-of-a.[not so two months ago - happy news to go to bed with!]go investigate, i promise you won't be dissapointed[that is, if you like sci-fi culture novels :)]

journal-lurking...

went journal lurking this evening...never really did this to any [reasonable] extent before.found some cool people, cool cool cool.it seems the coolest ones are in LA... hmmmm. is it real?[signs point to moving away, east or west... i'm not sure]suggestions?

update...

i often realize that when i am not updating or contacting any of my friends, i am hermitting [my own word, you can borrow it if you like]. a close friend [erica] pointed out to me once, that whenever i am being a hermit, things are generally going pretty shitty in my life. she has proven her theory [through my actions] time and time again. hmph.the verbal contract i got... well, turned out to be what verbal contracts are made of... NOTHING. i sent the lady my proposal & she backed out. fuck, i was looking forward to being able to pay my bills. oh well, nothing i can do about it now - worrying isn't going to help me [this revelation came to me AFTER days of crying & excessive worrying - better late than never i guess].on a lighter note... i have been taking care of things i CAN control [NOT my financial situation]... such as super-duper house cleaning. i have cleaned all of my windows - inside & OUT [if you have been to my place, you KNOW what a job THAT is], steam cleaned two of the four floors i have been wanting to clean for ages now, re-arranged my bedroom [woo-hoo feng shui!] - it's lovely! i have also been working in my "garden" [i guess you could call it that], making my place a more liveable place to be. i have also been exercising [not so regularly, but vigorously] - strange but true. AND eating healthy - curiouser & curiouser! i am seeing myself slip into my thirties & i am determined to fight it every step of the way [a stranger guessed my age on saturday & it sent me reeling - until recently, i was regularly carded for cigarettes - note to self: do everything in your power to not get old].i have been avoiding the mercury, not really much to tell on the good news front, so i dissappear - i find it difficult to get all corseted & cinched up for the evening when i'm feeling this way. i worry that i cannot pull off my club persona when i get into these situations [so i avoid them - fucking coward]. why the fuck do i feel an need for a "club persona" anyway? it's a goth club for fuck's sake! shouldn't that be a safe haven for the discontent? on a happier note... mat has been lovely as ever & extremely helpful & supportive. we had a wonderful weekend... on friday we went to see an english band @ the crocodile... the divine comedy. it was fabulous - AND i saw some people i used to go to school with - they gave me free coatcheck [awwww... i was so touched by this gesture - it was invariably kind]. i also ran into a friend that i hadn't seen in YEARS... big don [not to be confused with little dawn]. it was great to see him again [he is taller than i remember] - i gave him my card, i hope that he will contact me soon so we can keep in touch [i have to admit, i am utter crap at keeping in touch]. saturday i spent the morning getting my carpets lovely & white again & cleaning all of my windows... whew, i was tired! met up with mat later that afternoon to exercise at the gym [it's amazing how quickly the stamina comes back to you] & then off to his place for an evening of red wine & xbox. FABULOUS! i have blisters on my thumbs... we played dead or alive, i especially enjoyed jumping off tall buildings to kick even more ass!on sunday we relaxed & took a long walk to the beach & all the way around lincoln park. it's funny, i live so close to the ocean but rarely go there; yet every time i go i find it exceedingly theraputic. strange. mental note: go to the ocean more often. today i watched the ghandi movie, i was enthralled, to say the least. it was inspiring [yet simultaneously depressing] to watch, it triggered something in me which made me compare my original goals to my current goals. vast differences. i have strayed far from my original intentions. hmph. need to work on that.

good news on the job front...

got a freelance web design contract.cool, cool. she liked my stuff & had all sorts of big ideasfor her site. yes, i got the contract - but it's only verbal.let's just hope that when she gets the proposal i sentout today [contract, prices, all the specs in a design doc & some mockups]anyway, let's just hope that she doesn't balk @ theprice & decide to pitch the whole idea.hope hope hope hope...[i need her to sign the contract - NOW!]

updating...

hey...i'm updating my address book...would you all email your contact info[address, phone, email, etc] to erika@molecularleveldesign.comthanks much...e

updating...

hey...i'm updating my address book...would you all email your contact info[address, phone, email, etc] to erika@molecularleveldesign.comthanks much...e

whew!

i think i applied for every design job on the planet today [i think i sent out about 60 or 70 resumes today - nationwide!] i changed my job search criteria & BLAM! loads of jobs - i was just looking wrong. woo-hoo!i'm bound to hear back from somebody - and quite frankly, i wouldn't mind moving to ny for a few years. yeah new york! or perhaps soak up some sun in california [valley of the plastic people] - i'm tired of being cold, broke & jobless.wish me luck!

resolution time... argh!

ok, i guess i had better come up with some resolutions...- eat less junk food- exercise more [or at all would be a start]- see more of my friends, not be so neglectful of them- throw away my hermit-ways- get a great job & kick ass there so that they all love & adore me [so i don't LOSE the job i resolved to get]- not let my uber-independance destroy my relationships- go boarding... LOTS- get back into kickboxing [no, not that girly aerobic crap]- be [only a little] less vain- try new things [i've always wanted to take bellydancing classes]ok, here's the grit:: if anyone can tink of anything else that they think i need to work on... please tell me... and be honest.